Nemo @ The Moonlight Library

Nemo @ The Moonlight Library

I primarily read contemporary YA and spec fic with a love for those fantasy stories involving girls discovering their power.

5 Stars
The Queen's Rising by Rebecca Ross
The Queen's Rising - Rebecca Ross

The Queen's Rising is a beautiful and imaginative story about Brienna, a young woman torn between identities, and the journey she takes to help reclaim her heritage.

The tale starts in a kind of quasi-French or other Western European Rennaissance-era kind of place where a very describable goal for children and young people is to 'passion' in a particular school: art, wit, dramatics, music, or knowledge. To do so, children must become 'ardens', attend Houses and train at an average of seven years with a Master or 'ariels'. Then they may graduate by receiving a cloak, find a patron, and continue to pursue their passion. I loved this worldbuilding, I just felt so at home with everything Brienna was learning. Brienna joins Magnolia House, but as she is unable to find a passion she can truly excel at she settles on knowledge, and when she is seventeen she finds it difficult to secure a patron until along comes someone who can help with the mysterious visions she has been experiencing. This patron leads her into a war for the throne of the neighbouring land, from which Brienna's absent father hails, and I think it's more based on the medieval Celts, with women warriors and woad and Irish-Gaelic inspired names.

I think the best thing about this book is the beautiful word choices Ross uses. Whenever there is a chance to use a bland description or a truly beautiful one, Ross manages to grab the beautiful description and wrangle it into her book. Brienna herself was a brave, resourceful character who worked hard to uncover the mysteries surrounding herself and help the plot move along. I loved the time spent in Magnolia House with her arden-sisters and the slow introduction made to the incredible worldbuilding in that respect. Magnolia House was almost like a boarding house crossed with a University and a distinct European feel to it. Think Girl with a Pearl Earring or The Merchant of Venice.  I really hope the next books in the series follow Brienna's arden-sisters and we get to see more of this kingdom.

The second half of the book takes place primarily in Maevana, a queen's realm currently being ruled by a cruel king, and Brienna is the answer the rebels have been looking for. Using a disguise, she infiltrates the king's court in an attempt to recover some lost property that will set the real queen back on the throne. This half of the book almost forgets about Brienna's time at Magnolia and turns into a very typical, predictable YA fantasy adventure. Not that there's anything wrong with that! I've simply read enough of these types of stories to know where it's going to go. I still enjoyed it, but I think since the Magnolia House half to me seemed more original and inventive, I liked the worldbuilding better in the first half. The second half, like I said, was more of an adventure that the first half was leading up to, even though they take place in two very different settings.

I do have two issues with the book. Brienna trains for a year with each ariel before she settles on knowledge as her passion, and she only has three years to master it. This means that she’s had some training in music, art, wit and dramatics, and I was really hoping that that training might come in handy during her subterfuge. Yet instead of any of her time at Magnolia being of use, the book is basically split into two parts: Magnolia and post-Magnolia, and it almost seems as if they have nothing in common. Brienna learns to swordfight post-Magnolia, and that comes in handy, but she doesn’t have to use her passion training at all. I think part of the reason why is because she kind of sucked at them, but she doesn’t even really use her expanded knowledge to help her succeed in her mission, so it feels a little disjointed.

The other issue I have with the book is that while there is conflict in that Brienna has a goal and she keeps getting hurdles put in the way, she clears these hurdles rather easily. She’s smart and can come up with solutions to her problems but I never really felt like Ross took the worst thing that could happen to her. It wasn’t exactly helicopter authoring in that Ross put Brienna in bad situations then lifted her out again, just that, for example, when Brienna was risking her life and doing things she shouldn’t be doing, she never got caught by the bad guys, even though I really hoped that was where it was leading.

Overall I thoroughly enjoyed The Queen's Rising, with its gorgeous writing and creative and innovative worldbuilding. While I do think the entire story is self-contained and makes an excellent stand-alone, I would also like the next books in the series to focus on Brienna's arden-sisters and their adventures, rather than staying with Brienna and whatever she does next. I guess I'll have to wait and see!


I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

5 Stars
Goodbye Perfect by Sara Barnard Was Actually Perfect
Goodbye, Perfect - Sara Barnard

Goodbye, Perfect is the story of what happens to those left behind when an A grade ‘good’ schoolgirl runs off with her music teacher.


I completely adore Sara Barnard’s writing. I asked to be a part of the blog tour because I adored Beautiful Broken Things so much I sobbed into my pillow when I finished it. My copy of Goodbye, Perfect was sitting next to my computer as I was waiting for something to load, and I picked it up just to have a quick flick through, read the first page, and was instantly hooked. I devoured it over the next 24 hours. I haven’t been reading much lately, and I had honestly forgotten the joy that a damn good book can give.


It’s not just that Barnard has a wonderful grasp on how teenagers talk - to each other, to adults, to themselves - but her characters are so three dimensional and I recognise so much of my own life in them. I think that’s why they touch me so much. I could totally identify people from my teen years in the book, and I think Eden’s relationship with her boyfriend Connor was not exactly sweet, but certainly comforting and incredibly real, although Connor does seem particularly mature in response to his on personal circumstances, in comparison to teen boys I knew.


I really liked that the question in the book wasn’t really about Bonnie, the ‘good girl’, and whether or not she really was in love with a man almost twice her age, and whether or not he really was in love with her. The real point of the book was the impact Bonnie’s departure made on those left behind and the position it left Eden in. Eden had a very undeserved bad reputation courtesy of being adopted when she was nine years old, and Bonnie had a good one. Eden was the brash, nonacademic, reckless one and Bonnie was the polite, straight A, measured one. Their friendship cemented on the fact that Bonnie grounded Eden and Eden helped Bonnie loosen up. Bonnie's actions shook her world and Eden was there to witness it.


What really helped me fall even more deeply in love with this book is the layout. There’s not exactly chapters, but it’s divided into the days Bonnie is missing. At the end of these, Eden recaps conversations that took on another meaning after Bonnie left. Text messages and Whatsapp messages are formatted differently. Everything looked so great and I thought it was a really smart and charming way to lay out the contents of the book.

I can’t pinpoint a favourite part of the book because there were just too many, but I’ll mention some things I really loved: Eden’s exploration into what family means when you’re adopted; her relationship with Valerie, her adoptive big sister; the way she looked after both her own and Bonnie’s little sisters; the relationship with Connor; Eden’s mouthiness and how everyone was kind of exasperated with her swearing but she kept doing it; stereotypes of teen girls and reputations and broken homes and perfect lives. In fact, it was Eden who so rightfully pointed out that if Eden’s such a bad girl and if Bonnie’s so good, why was Bonnie the one that ran away, right before final exams?


When I read Beautiful Broken Girls I wondered if it was just going to be it for me, if Barnard was capable of writing another book so perfect and that touches me unlike any other I’ve read before. I did skip over A Quiet Kind of Thunder because I thought it was more about a hetero romance than strong (British) teenage female friendship, which I think Barnard tackles and showcases unlike anyone else. But since Barnard has now managed to hit the ball out of the park twice for me, I am going to read A Quiet Kind of Thunder, and I hope I adore it as much as I have fallen deeply in love with both Beautiful Broken Things and Goodbye, Perfect.


I received this book for free from Pan MacMillan in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

4 Stars
Avenged by Amy Tintera
Avenged (Ruined) - Amy Tintera

I absolutely adored Ruined, the first book in this series, so when Avenged came up on Edelweiss to review, I jumped at the chance.


That was in 2016, ahead of the May 2017 release date.


That was before my life changed forever and I only read 12 books in 2017. Unfortunately Ruined was not one of them.


But with a fresh start in 2018, I picked Ruined up again and was ready to delve back into the world of violence, magic, royalty, legacy, swoony romance, and a strong bond between sisters.



I enjoyed Avenged while I was reading it, but it didn't have the desperate need to turn the page and find out what happened next that Ruined did. I enjoyed the new characters, the development of the old, and the never-ending violence that happened, especially when Olivia was nearby. I really loved how we got to see some points of view from Olivia and Aren. I loved watching Aren go from being the perfect Ruined warrior to something a little more, and questioning his loyalties. I really loved how everyone each had their own agendas which clashed and caused the plot to move forward in an organic way.



However there was something that was missing, and I'm not quite sure what. The plot, perhaps, was a little less exciting that Em's plan to infiltrate the enemy royal house by impersonating a foreign princess and marrying the prince as she did in Ruined. There seemed to be a lot of travel involved in this one, which on the one hand was great as we got to see other kingdoms, but on the other hand, it was travelling. The stakes didn't seem to be quite as high in this book. It seemed that Em was almost invincible: the Lerans won't hurt her, the Olsans wont hurt her, the Ruined won't hurt her... even though she did really risky things, it was more risking the chance for peace than her own life.


Maybe I just miss the Em who murdered a princess in cold blood on the opening pages of Ruined.

Booklovers, You Need To Add This Chrome Extension

There's an extension built for Chrome and coming soon to Firefox that every book blogger should know about.


It's called Library Extension.


What it does is add a little box when you're browsing book pages on Amazon or Goodreads and tells you whether or not your local library (whatever library you use) or has a copy of that book.


Then you can click on through straight to the library's book page.


On Amazon the box appears above the'add to cart' box.


On Goodreads it appears under the book description.


I've been using it for a couple of weeks now and it's really awesome. It saves time to manually look up the book on your library's page and it will no doubt save the moolah and shelf space.


It only works with a limited number of countries, but you have to select yours to make it work anyway. I live in the arse end of nowhere and it even works with my library.


Seriously people, get it now. It's totally awesome.

4 Stars
Assassin's Gambit by Amy Raby
Assassin's Gambit - Amy Raby

This isn't my usual YA, but I did enter Goodreads First Reads competition to win it, and I did really want to read it. Oh my god, I took FOREVER to read this book but I swear it's not a reflection on the book's quality, believe me! I had a really good time when I was reading this book, I've just had THE WORST YEAR for reading. I started reading this is August 2016 after winning it on Goodreads in 2014 (BAD NEMO) and my other review books kept getting in the way, then this year happened and my life went to hell in a hand basket, but when I did have the energy to read this book I adored the chemistry between the PTSD-suffering sex assassin and the sexy, sensitive disabled ruler she's sent to murder. So let me tell you a bit about it.


Vitala is half Kjallan and half Riorcan, and her loyalties lie with Riorca, a country under the oppressive rule of the Kjallan emperor. Using her looks and skills at a chess-like game called Cataranga, Vitala infiltrates the emperor's inner circle and is about to use the only magic that can kill the magically-protected emperor when he is betrayed by an underling. Now Lucien is at her mercy, Vitala realises that it's in Riorca's best interest to get Lucien back on the throne, and through trials, politics, and acts of war with a sprinkling of romance, the two attempt to do just that.


Vitala was an interesting heroine. A lot of people complain about how she didn't kill her mark, but she was smart enough to questions her orders and not follow them blindly, finding another way to attempt peace and freedom for her people. Also, where is the conflict if you write "After years of training, she killed her target, and she was OK with that, the end"? She suffers from PTSD due to her training and starts the novel off thinking sex is just a tool to help her kill her marks. With Lucien's help, she comes to realise sex is so much more.


Lucien is a disabled man in an alpha male's role, and learning to come to terms with his  leadership in a society that celebrates physical prowess over intelligence, skill and cunning. Lucien is far more sensitive and gentle than the emperor whose throne he inherited, but still carries his authority, and as Vitala discovers this, she figures out he's not the tyrant she's been led to believe he is. Lucien has his own troubles to deal with and doesn't always treat Vitala with the patience and respect she deserves, but they tackle their conflicts in the best way they're equipped to.


I liked the writing. I didn't find it too flowery or sparse. I did have problems remembering all of the world building but I read this over the course of more than a year (which was entirely my own fault) and I think if someone read it faster they could probably do a better job of remembering ranks and countries and all that stuff. I found Vitala's PTSD very believable, and I know firsthand what PTSD is like. I also found Lucien's attitudes refreshing.


I don't know if the pacing was my problem because once I was reading it I didn't want to put it down, but equally I had little initiative to pick it back up again. I think since I knew it was always going to be there waiting for me and like most assassin romances the plot was pretty predictable, but I really did enjoy it while I was reading. Vitala and Lucien's chemistry was off the charts and I very nearly dog-eared some pages to re-read at some point (WHO DOG-EARS THEIR PAGES YOU MONSTER?).


Overall I think if you're open minded, give the book time to show you that Vitala has PTSD rather than losing patience with her struggle and coping mechanisms (I will mention that she is raped and she tries to dismiss it as a minor discomfort, this is so she can deal with the assault and concentrate on murdering her attacker, not to say that rape is actually a minor discomfort), and realise that it's an assassin romance and the romance is written right there in the blurb, you'll probably enjoy the book as much as I did.

3 Stars
The Afterlife of Holly Chase
The Afterlife of Holly Chase - Cynthia Hand

I wanted to save this review for December but just for now I'll say that I was going to give up on this book at about 20% in because I just couldn't buy the premise, I couldn't suspend my disbelief because I really hate those concepts like Dead Like Me where the character is dead but they have to go on 'living' in the real world and have a shitty job and can't see anyone who might recognise them and I just really hate that concept, I didn't realise how much I hated until I was ready to give up a CYNTHIA HAND book. CYNTHIA HAND. She was on my auto-buy list.

I tried not to take it seriously because someone said this was supposed to be a light, fun book, so I deliberately spoiled the ending which was a twist I didn't see coming, and then I thought I could at least finish it, but even then there were some things that just didn't work even when I knew the ending. Mostly about a different particular character not being whom they seemed to be. And I couldn't buy that Holly was being underpaid in a job she hated but had no choice in doing where she was so important she led her own team but there were so many ways to fail if you didn't put in 100%.

Look, the concept of a company that spends all year investigating their 'Scrooge' so they can perform a personalised Christmas Carol didn't really work either because it tried to be set in the real world with real people using makeup and special effects to play the Ghosts, but there was also an element of magic using time travel and summoning the Marley characters, and I couldn't help but wonder, why isn't the entire thing just magical based? Why is so much of it set in reality? It's a real company with real university graduates doing real engineering and a HR and finance department (why finance? Where are they getting their money from?), and trying to marry the supernatural elements didn't work, because the original Scrooge wouldn't have had all that modern tech stuff, and I just had so many issues with the basic concept. How exactly does one go about getting a job at Project Scrooge? Why have no ex-employees ever spilled the beans about REAL GHOSTS AND TIME TRAVEL?

The best thing going for this book is Holly's narrative voice, littered with pop references and snark and just so spoilt-rich-girl it's wonderful.

Oh look I guess I kind of did review it.

I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

5 Stars
Shattered: The Glass Spare by Lauren DeStefano
The Glass Spare  (Seventh Spare Series, Book 1) - Lauren DeStefano

The Glass Spare tells the fascinating story of a young princess named Wil, the fourth child and only daughter of a powerful and ruthless king, who wants nothing more than to travel the world. When she is attacked she discovers she has the power to turn living things into crystals and gemstones, and she goes off on a journey to cure her curse, only to fall in with the banished prince of a rival kingdom who is determined to save his kingdom from ruin.


Wil was a really great character to follow around because she had an actual thought process. She thought about her situations and came up with answers to her obstacles. Although she was fierce and action-oriented, she had a clear and level head and made decisions based on observations and facts rather than simply reacting without thinking. I loved the way she responded to things, like leaping to rescue a damsel in distress, and the care and love she showed to her brothers and mother. Wil, despite being a good person who loves fiercely and genuinely cares for others, thinks she's a monster because of her curse... and then she actually meets one. I look forward to more of the monstrosity vs humanity debate being explored further in the sequel.


While I didn't feel distant from Wil and felt the suitable horror when the incident that banished her happened, I did feel a little distance with the supposed romance. I kind of felt like Wil wasn't really into it, and I'll go into that in just a moment. What I do want to mention is the third person narration, which is not my favourite type of narration, did lend itself to the occasional head hopping, and that's why it's not my favourite type of narration. Sometimes we were supposed to be seeing things from Wil's point of view yet we were told what Loom was thinking. That's just about my only negative criticism, though.


I want to address the 'romance'. Some have accused this book of being more romance than fantasy and some have accused Wil and Loom of 'insta-love'. I was 60% through when I made a status saying there was absolutely no romance so far. It's pretty much developed from about 70% onwards, so there is NO insta-love. Wil absolutely does NOT love the male character, Loom. It's explained that she is drawn to him, but she never even thinks she's in love, in fact she thinks the exact opposite, that she's NOT in love because she doesn't know what love feels like. SO THERE IS NO INSTA-LOVE. It's also NOT more romance than fantasy because although it was clear Wil and Loom would end up with some kind of feelings for each other (because that is how YA books work, nothing against the author, I think she did a really good job of it all), the book was well past the halfway mark before you even get the hint that Wil might be interested in Loom. Even then, right near the end it's explained why Wil is drawn to Loom and she acknowledges that she's not in love. You can't even tell she's developing an attraction until waaaaay in because she hates him at first: he's keeping her captive and she's literally escaping from him. It certainly isn't instant.


The worldbuilding has this fascinating mix of old-school fantasy and almost a steampunk-meets-digital advanced technology. There's dirigibles and solar power and data googles and it's a lovely mess of technologies: Wil's father the king is old school and archaic and won't build proper roads for electric carriages; the closed off Southern kingdom has more advanced technology yet that king's favourite method of execution is the guillotine. I don't think I've ever read a book with this kind of mix of technologies, magic and alchemy and digital and solar power and wind power and just wow, it was so interesting. I'd love to be able to go into this world and see the different technology the different islands have developed, and that obviously it's all come together because of trade and advancement.


I've had a really bad reading year due to personal issues and although this book was over 400 pages, when I did pick it up my reading seemed to go really quickly and I'd pass 5% of my ebook without even noticing. The pace wasn't neck-snappingly fast but it was brisk enough to keep me interested for longer periods of time including staying up til midnight to finish. It only took me a couple of weeks to read this and in comparison I've been reading another book for well over a year now. I loved it and I'm keen to receive the sequel. Thank you Lauren for writing a story about a magical princess.


I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

How is everyone?

I miss you guys.


Life is still sucking.


Reading is still sucking.


But I'm positive about the future and I know I'll come back when all this shit has settled down. I'll be lucky if I even read 10 books this year.


On the positive side, if anyone remembers about a year ago I nearly killed myself and my husband in a car crash when I fell asleep at the wheel. Well, I have treatment for my sleep apnea now and I'm a lot better: no more falling asleep during the day, no more naps, I get decent rest, and I don't even need caffeine to try to help me focus anymore.


Tell me the most recent interesting thing about your life!


4 Stars
Before She Ignites was a slow burn but worth it
Before She Ignites (Fallen Isles) - Jodi Meadows

I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.


A spoiled, privileged, none-too-smart girl with a mental illness is thrown into the most awful of jails and must content with a cruel prison guard who is determined to uncover the secrets that put her there.


Mira is the Hopebearer, nothing more than a pretty face and a voice for the Luminary Council to placate their citizens due to a treaty named after her. Mira holds no real power, and she discovers this when she uncovers something she shouldn’t have and tries to do the right thing, culminating with her being tossed into an underground jail known as the Pit. Mira suffers from anxiety and panic attacks which I think are written quite well. She is obsessed with numbers and continues to count throughout the novel, without her illness being magically cured by the end. She spends most of the novel in the jail, and we see the lead-up to her imprisonment through flashbacks as she slowly reveals her secrets to us and to a cruel guard determined to make her like even more miserable.


Meadows shows her skills as a writer by slowly uncovering the truth not only about why Mira was thrown in jail, but about the people who put her there. I don’t really want to say much else because it’s better to go into this novel unspoiled and reveal it for yourself. I really enjoyed all aspects, especially as Mira began to realise her world was not the way she thought it was. She goes from a soft-skinned pawn to a stronger young woman who figures out that although she has been in a gilded cage her entire life, her voice can be used as a weapon.


The use of short flashback scenes cut between the current timeline of Mira in prison helps to not only reveal what led to her demise, but also develop the characters of her best friends and to see more of the dragons that Mira loves so much. It creates a kind of cliffhanger at the end of every chapter: You want to know what’s going to happen next in the current timeline but you also want to see more of Mira’s life pre-prison. You really get the sense of Mira’s privileged lifestyle as she bemoans all of the luxuries she’s missing in prison and her obsession with food is completely understandable when she is starved and tortured.


I think my only problem with this novel is that Mira spends an awful lot of time in prison and stubbornly doesn’t spill her secret the first chance she is given. I don’t really understand why she keeps the secret for so long. I feel that if I were in her position I’d be telling everyone I could. The more people that know, the less the bad guys can get away with what they’re doing. However, it’s a very small issue and the rest of the novel is thoroughly enjoyable. I’m really looking forward to the sequels.

4 Stars
Where is that kid from 'Matilda' now?
Where Am I Now?: True Stories of Girlhood and Accidental Fame - Mara Wilson

I don’t really review autobiographies or memoirs on this blog, it’s largely devoted to YA fiction, but these memoirs are written by the child actress who played, among other roles, beloved Matilda, Natalie in Mrs Doubtfire, and Susan from the remake of Miracle on 34th Street.



Her name is Mara Wilson and she has some things she wants you to know. Mostly that she’s a grown up now, someone who has sex and is old enough to drink alcohol legally.

A more than competent writer, Mara shares with us stories from her school life, including a horrible bullying incident that led her to transfer to a performing arts boarding school, some behind the scenes stories from her acting days, and how she struggled to keep acting once she outgrew being ‘cute’. Obviously she’s a beautiful, intelligent woman now, but once she grew boobs she just wanted to quit acting. Did she break up with Hollywood or did Hollywood dump her? It’s still a bit ambiguous in this book.


Mara’s honesty is refreshing. She’s still a celebrity, even if she’s not quite famous as an adult, and a lot of people look back fondly at her childhood work and remember her. She’s honest about how weird that is, like acting wasn’t particularly hard for her (even though she really was one in a million, and its obvious for me to say here she really was talented) and it’s a bit strange how everyone keeps telling her how awesome she was. She’s honest about how she feels about the industry now and her peers who have gone on to star in grown-up films like ScarJo and KStew. She’s even honest about finding her niche in New York City and how she’s been stretching her wings as a storyteller. But best of all, she’s honest about her OCD and anxiety diagnosis and how she learned to deal with mental illness.


I enjoyed this look at Mara’s life, though she doesn’t remember much from the parts I was really interested in because it all happened when she was so young. She gives the impression of being an intelligent, innocent, precocious child who enjoyed being a bit of a show off but felt guilty about it at the same time. She’s grown into a competent, wise storyteller. As autobiographies go, this is one of the better ones I’ve read.


Have you seen any of Mara’s films? Did you ever wonder what happened to that kid from Matilda? Can you recommend any other celebrity memoirs?

3 Stars
Beautiful Broken GIrls by Kim Savage
Beautiful Broken Girls - Kim  Savage

I received this book for free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.


Man, these girls were broken long before anyone even died.


Two sisters lead a completely sheltered life and when their promiscuous cousin dies, they seemingly commit suicide by drowning in the local quarry pool shortly afterwards. The younger sister, Mina, left several notes to her ex-boyfriend explaining why they died but in a convoluted way she hid them in places where he touched her, including adult bedrooms, which is weird, so the ex (Ben, by the way, and our sad little hero) has to set off on this strange little quest to break into places to find these notes and find out why the sisters died.


The biggest question that kept me going in this book was why? Why did the sisters act this way, wh did the whole town lust after them, why were they basically shut-ins with no technology allowed in their house and a control-freak dad who called every hour on the hour to make sure they weren’t, I don’t know, screwing around? Why did the beloved cousin die, and why did it have this weird effect on the sisters? Why was Mina so cruel and Francesca so confident (arrogant?) about how special she was?


Basically, because Francesca suffers from stigmata she thinks she should become a saint and so she volunteers at a soup kitchen where she passes horrible judgment on everyone and manages to convince herself that the youth pastor will fall in love with her once he only figures out how special she is. I’m not sure what she wants from the youth pastor, Mr Falso. Does she want to screw him or just his spiritual approval? It really smacks me of the whole ‘women as evil seducers’ because this skinny, starving herself teenage girl wants more from an older man when Ben (remember Ben, the actual main character in this novel?) was actually sexually assaulted by his old coach, not that he remembers it, and in fact the only evidence anyone has to go on is a entire list the coach made of kids that Ben happened to be on. What happened to the other kids on the list? Why is Ben singled out and made a fuss of years later over something he doesn’t even remember? Anyway my point is that underage girl + older man = girl is seducer but underage boy + older man = boy is victim.


Anyway,Francesca is pretty awful, she’s so convinced she has magical powers that it leads to complete tagedy. Meanwhile, Mina is casually cruel throughout the book and even murders a helpless tiny kitten just for shits and giggles, so neither girl is really one I found anything redeeming about.


And Ben’s drive to find the truth behind the girls is largely misguided and supposed to be based on his own backstory.


Look, this book was just weird. True, I did find all the Catholic stuff pretty interesting because I was raised Catholic then left the Church when I realised God doesn’t exist, but Ben having the break into places and find notes left behind where Mina had had to do the exact same thing months before to leave them there? And the fact that their suicide was clearly planned because of these notes brings up similarities to Thirteen Reasons Why, which I couldn’t even finish because it seemed to be about a girl who just couldn’t handle being a girl, and it seems that Beautiful Broken Girls also was about girls who just couldn’t handle being girls, and although parts of the book were interesting, other parts struggled to hold my interest, and it’s not really a subject I’m that interested, the weakness of women, I mean.


And the ending just didn’t make any sense to me, and I have thought about it a lot since I finished the book and I still don’t get it.

4 Stars
Pointe, Claw was no the book I expected but was the book I needed
Pointe, Claw - Amber J. Keyser

I received this book for free from Walker Books Australia in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.


What can I say about Pointe, Claw?


I’ll start with telling you why I wanted to read it. I love those books that are about performing, whether it be musicians, actors, or dancers. And Keyser is a former ballerina, an actual former performer who can tell it like it is – and she does. She knows intimately not just the moves in ballet but how each muscle works while doing them, and delivers it with the knowledge of someone who hasn’t just researched but lived it. This makes Jessie’s narration so believable and so easy to live in.


The same can be said for Dawn’s discussions on evolutionary biology. Keyser has taken two huge parts of her identity and given one to each of the main characters in this book so that once again, it’s doesn’t feel like research. It’s more than research when you literally write what you know.


I wanted to read a book about a strong female friendship and I’ll admit I was a little thrown when I discovered the girls’ friendship was somewhat more than that. I loved reading about how strongly the girls felt about each other back when they were children, and how they felt about each other now they were almost grown up. I liked how both girls came from broken homes and neither wanted to return to them. I liked how the voices of the girls were so distinct. It was a very well written book.


While the book seems a little light on plot, it does a good job of unraveling the questions that pop up. The best thing about this book, I feel, is Jessie’s sexual awakening at the hands of her ballet teacher, which very much reminded me of the Phantom of the Opera, the film version, where Gerard Butler is Emmy Rossum’s sexual awakening but Patrick Wilson is her romantic awakening. I very much expected them to have sex even though Jessie was underage. At the same time, Jessie is struggling with her feelings for Dawn that she’s had since they were kids.


The book is certainly about girl bodies and how other people try to control them. Jessie is learning a dance that feels dangerous because it is so un-classical. Dawn’s mother drags her from doctor to doctor trying to diagnose what is happening to her body. Strangers leer and drool over the thin ballerina with no chest, grope the girl who dresses like a boy to hide her flesh. Both girls initially fight their animalistic urges, and both, eventually, succumb, in choices that are purely theirs.


It’s kind of hard to say why I enjoyed this weird book so much. I wanted to read about a dancer and a girl who’s turning into a bear, and I got both: but I got so much more. I got a real dancer’s experience. I got sexual chemistry and an almost love triangle but not quite (seriously it is NOT a love triangle). I got friction between parents who don’t understand their daughters. I got girls fighting to control their bodies. I got an ending I’m still thinking about, that I think works, but still makes me a little sad.


I know I haven’t actually said very much about this book but I really enjoyed it and I think if you like feminism, performing arts stories, magical realism or just plain weird then you might enjoy it, too.

4 Stars
'Long May She Reign' Reigned Long In My Heart
Long May She Reign - Rhiannon Thomas

I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.


Freya is twenty-third in line to the throne, so she’s never meant to be queen. Until a mass murder at a feast leaves her on the throne. The question is, who is responsible for the murders, and are they angry they missed Freya? Will they come after her? And how can she make being queen a success and help her downtrodden people


I absolutely adored this plot. There is no fantasy or magic in this book, just alternate-world historical fiction with a heroine who’d rather lose herself in science experiments than socialise with the wicked nobility of the court. She is woefully unprepared to be queen and at first everyone pushes her around and tells her what to do. It isn’t until she starts questioning tradition and shaking up the status quo that she really comes into being a real queen and oh my god YAS she won my heart over many times. More interested in science than romance, I’d heard a rumour she was actually asexual. This isn’t true, and there is a dash of romance, but by far the plot revolves around the politics of crowning a new, young, female monarch, and Freya’s own investigation into the mass murder. I had recently been watching The Crown on Netflix, which is based in Queen Elizabeth II’s life, and I found a lot of similarities between the two stories. If you like one, you’re bound to enjoy the other.


Probably the only thing I didn’t like was the result of who ended up getting the blame for the murders. To me it was’t that character’s fault that things turned out they way they did, even if they intended it that way. It was another character’s actions that actually ensured everyone died, but no one even thought of blaming that character. To me it seemed more like shooting the messenger, similar to who got the blame for a beloved character’s death in Mockingjay: clearly they were not directly responsible, but they got the blame anyway.


Like I said above, I adored Freya as a character who is too busy not being a complete nitwit or overcome with lust to focus on boys. A dash of romance is ok, and it’s especially ok when you’re falling for someone who might be an enemy… oh the angst! But I loved the politics involved in the shake-up of the new untried, untested, uneducated monarch and the fact that some people suspected HER of being the murderer! It was fascinating to read. I also loved that Freya had a cat she clearly adored, but who favoured her close friend Naomi instead.


Speaking of friends, Freya’s little gang of confidants was awesome. I loved Naomi’s unending loyalty, and the two relationships developed between possible suspects Madeleine, Freya’s heir and would-be-queen if not for Freya’s survival, and Fitzroy, the king’s bastard son and therefore not eligible for the throne, were so well-written I ended up adoring both of them.


I think the because the book focused a lot on politics and Freya’s appearances as queen and stuff like learning speeches and defying tradition as well as plenty of science experiments to determine how everyone was murdered on the way to whom and why, some people might find this book lacking a little in action and pacing. I took a while to finish the book but that was because of personal circumstances. The opening chapters were amazing, showcasing Freya as strong and independent, with a strong female friendship, a cute cat, and something better to do than sit around at a boring feast. My favourite part of the whole book was when Freya finally realised the power she had inherited as queen, and that she had a duty to run her country and look after her people, and not just solve the murder. My other favourite parts were watching the team stop and think and change their hypothesis on their murder investigation when presented with proof and facts.


Overall I adored this novel. It was really refreshing to read a YA book that was so almost fantasy but not, that really measured its use of romance, that showcased such a wonderfully rounded character as Freya, with all her ideals and beliefs and willingness to break tradition. The supporting characters were also really entertaining to read about, especially the two rivals to the throne who ended up being Freya’s closest friends. The murder mystery ran throughout the entire novel, and although I was ultimately unhappy with who go the blame, I think I can see what the author was trying to get at. I just don’t really believe in shooting the messenger. I believe this is a stand-alone novel, but if it were to get a sequel I would happily read it

5 Stars
Sun sets on Study series as Dawn Study ends
Dawn Study - Maria V. Snyder

Sorry for being such a shit and forgetting to post the minimal reviews I've done this year.


This year has just been the absolute worst and I'm still finding it hard to find time to read.


I have this medical condition that causes me to lose concentration and fall asleep if I stay still for too long. It's being looked at, but the doctor doesn't want to treat me through the public system since I got tested through the private system. Essentially this specialist has an issue with my GP (who is the sweetest, coolest, most laid-back dude ever, and once dressed up as Gandalf for a fancy dress party, so you know he's cool) and takes it out on my GPs patients?!!!! Like is that even legal? Do I even want to work with this specialist? But the only other specialist in the state is on vacation?!!!! So essentially FML.




I received this book for free from HarlequinTeen Australia, Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.

I don’t even know where to start with this book.


You know how each instalment of a series is supposed to be more epic than the last?

Well, at one point Snyder has something like 28 characters ‘onscreen’, all with different motivations, characterisations, and backstories, including small children with more sass than they have the right to be.


I don’t know how she managed to keep it all straight in her head, let alone write it in a way that made sense to her audience.


The crux of the story is that Valek’s old BFF Ambrose ‘The Commander’ is going to invade Sitia and wipe out all of the magicians with the help of some old enemies of Yelena’s. The Sitians are preparing for war against Ixia, but they are being mind-controlled by food laced with Theobroma, which  strips a person’s resilience to magic. Meanwhile, Yelena has every bounty hunter on her tail, no magic, and a growing baby bump. Valek is getting too old for this shit, but he’s the only one who can face down certain people while trying to keep his newly-discovered magical powers a secret (which led to some truly awesome scenes of outsmarting villains, I might add).


The team – or ‘herd’ as they start to refer to themselves – of Yelena’s allies all work together to overcome their various obstacles including finding a way to beat Theobroma and work around the newly discovered resistance to the old fallbacks of laced poison darts. There’s a lot of investigation, sneaking, spying, assassin-ining, disguises, riding hard and fast, deals made and broken, and trust betrayed and earned again. All the while Yelena and Valek manage to keep the hots for each other: no mean feat after years together offscreen. I think Yelena is meant to be in her mid to late twenties now, and Valek is close to, if not, forty.


There’s so many characters in this book that we have to take on multiple points of view to tell the story. Yelena’s is always my favourite, mostly because it’s first person, but Valek is a close second, only because we get to see the real emotion hiding underneath.

As a conclusion to Yelena and Valek’s story I found this novel very satisfying, including the ending. I recommend this book to all fantasy lovers and even fantasy novices, although it would probably be best to read the books that come before it first.


I look forward to the day Snyder gets an idea for a spin-off about a certain new female character set fifteen or so years into the future, but until then I’ll have to be content with re-reading this amazing, fantastical original fantasy series from cover to cover all over again.

Stop Misassigning The Original Stories in Retellings
Romancing the Throne - Nadine Jolie Courtney Flame in the Mist - Renee Ahdieh

Hello everyone! I've been away for a long time dealing with my personal life. I normally only post book reviews and musings here, which is why even though I've been blogging on my main blog for a few weeks now, nothing's been posted here, because I've only been doing memes and tags for that, and I'm still not reading anything. But here's a musing I feel pretty strongly about and I wonder if anyone else cares as much as I do?

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I still exist

I'm going through a really rough time in my life that started just before Christmas and ended up getting even crappier.


I haven't been reading and I haven't been on social media much.


It's all too hard at the moment. Gotta focus on my non-digital life.


I want to be back soon. Not sure when.


Miss you all xx



My name is Nemo.

By day I'm an office manager for the Government, by night I turn into a vigilante kitten snuggler.


"A good book resting unopened in its slot on a shelf, full of majestic potentiality, is the most comforting sort of intellectual wallpaper."

- David Quammen